THIERRY HENRY still tortures himself over his first missed chance in the Champions League final.
The injured Arsenal star, 29, is haunted by not slotting the ball past Barcelona keeper Victor Valdes when Arsenal were 1-0 up. They eventually lost 2-1 in Paris.
Henry, who hopes to return to face Liverpool in the FA Cup on January 6, also suffered heartbreak against Italy in the World Cup final.
He said: “I still feel that I let my team down against Barcelona.
“Neither in the World Cup final with France nor in the Champions League final for Arsenal did I make a difference for my team — I’m the first to admit that.
“But in that Champions League final I had two really big chances to win it.
“The second came after we’d been playing for about 50 minutes with only 10 men and even now I admit that I simply had nothing left in me. But the first chance, well I had to score it. It’s the kind of miss which you think about all the time.
“Not scoring a chance like that in a big final still angers me.
“That was the kind of moment which makes all the difference, make or break.
“You cannot judge a striker only on his goals or assists, but I’m still fighting the feeling that I let everyone down.
“I could have made the difference between winning and losing — but I didn’t.”
Henry again insisted that despite his frustrations on the pitch, he has not allowed them to boil over at the training ground.
He said: “You cannot get all grumpy and bitter just because you lose.
“You can never lose your love of football and give up on life just like that. I loathe losing but I have to take it on the chin. I cannot hide from the fact that only winning matters, but does that mean that you forget all the great victories with Arsenal and France?
“I don’t think like that, so even without trophies I believe 2006 has been a good year for me and Arsenal.”
Henry, who has suffered neck and hamstring problems, also admitted it is tough playing as a lone striker — something he has been forced to do regularly.
He said: “Playing up front on your own in a 4-5-1 is not really my normal style.
“It’s brutally hard, especially when you have 60 or more games in a season. But I must make one thing totally clear — I never give my opinions on tactics to my coaches.
“When Arsene picks the team and the tactics he never asks me for an opinion and I wouldn’t offer it.
“We will see at the end of the season whether it is right to play 4-5-1 as often as we do. How you have performed as a team by the end of the season is the only ‘truth’ which counts.
“But I’ve never regretted the decision to stay at Arsenal — I’ll never regret it.
“It was very soon after the Champions League final that I looked Arsene in the eyes and said ‘I’m staying’.
“We shook hands and he said ‘I knew it, I was sure!’
“It was extremely difficult to turn down Barcelona’s offer — this was the best team in the world.
“But I will always be grateful to Arsene and I know he appreciates and values my contribution to the team.
“We have our ups and downs, of course, but that’s hardly unusual.
“It just bugs me that I’m going to be missing some of our biggest games because of these injuries.
“I’m emotionally involved at Arsenal. Without the club perhaps I wouldn’t have met my wife and I wouldn’t have had our daughter.
“Arsenal, my wife and my daughter — these are two families. My heart tells me I’m in the right place.”